no confidence in self

Picture this scene with me:  I’m in a revival meeting at church one night, and the guest pastor states that we are a bunch of sensitive people!  It was funny!  He said he wanted to help us overcome our touchy state and asked us to raise our right hand and vow not to get offended for the next thirty days.  I participated saying to myself, “Oh, this is a cinch.  I never get offended!”

Can you say, “self-confident?”  Yeah, I fell from that self-righteous stand before I even managed to get home!  Let me explain…  I left the church meeting and headed to the grocery store.  While checking out, the employee grabbed the bag of bagels from the cart and brushed them up against a sharp edge and tore the bag.  She realized the package was opened and asked if I would like to go get a replacement bag.  Normally, that would be no problem to walk over to the bread department and fetch more bagels.  But on the night that I confidently vowed not to take offense for the next thirty days… well, I was offended!  I remember thinking, “She tore the bag, but she wants me to replace it?  Where are all the employees who wait on you here- the ones who ask if you found everything, and if the customer says, ‘no,’ they go and find it for you?”

I went to get a new bag of bagels, but I grumbled under my breath the whole time.  When I got back to the check-out counter, I’m sure I was noticeably mad as I completed my transaction.  Honestly, I did not recognize myself.

The next morning, the enemy was having a field day with my thoughts of failure as a witness for Christ.  I allowed a  simple bag of bagels take me from having a joyous heart to an angry heart.  How ridiculous was that?  Then I remembered the vow I spoke just hours earlier, so I declared aloud, “That’s right, devil!  I am a promise-breaker!  I did lie!  But the God whom I serve is the one Promise-Keeper, and He never lies!”  And that was the end of that!

I messed up; we all do, but anytime we decide to camp out in that place of failure and keep rehearsing our sin, we are missing our proper focus.  When we fall, we have only one thing to do: confess and get back up.  How can it be that easy, you ask?  Because we trust in the righteousness assigned to us in Christ Jesus.  “…that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ- the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith” (Philippians 3:9).

Believe today that as you abide in Christ, your past, present and future sins are covered and remembered no more. Our resurrected and victorious Savior applies His righteousness to us, and we are confident to stand before God without shame or condemnation.  That’s the kind of confidence that I am talking about- the assurance of God’s unconditional love and acceptance for all who have believed upon His Son!

2 Comments on “no confidence in self”

  1. Thank you for your honest post. Isn’t it almost funny how Satan can find our weaknesses before we even know they are there? I liked your challenge that I not rehearse my sin but confess it, accept God’s forgiveness and get going again. May God bless you and continue to make you a blessing!

    • Good point! And, I thank God for allowing that confidence in self to be brought to the surface so that it could be dealt with. He loves us way too much to leave us the way we are! God bless!

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